Hell-o my obsolete blog. I hardly visit you since I could let my heart broke and somebody came on over to picked the pieces. I realized that I priced myself low all this time. I deserve the expensive one! Yeah, God's plans are always good even great. Unexpected yet surprising. The keys are effort, pry, and let it flow. You know people usually said YOLO, now I understand what they mean.
Questions are start popping up!
"So this time you are desperate of love again"
"Is your heart hurt again?"
"What's story then you wanna tell us about?"
Dear my lovely friends,
First I wanna say thank you for noticing me with my absurd writes. Thank you for being reader when you're have nothing to do. Thank you for making jokes of my pity stories. Thank you for all you've done for cheer me up or make me down. Just thank you. May you have a great day, amazing life, and fabulous life.
I've turned 20 on July, 18th. I've grown up. Thanks to my parents. I will never be able to repay your struggle and sacrifice, but I hope can make you smile, happy, and proud to have this little jerk. I'm older than before, but I haven't wiser. Still too much drama and forget about karma. So childish. Sometimes I become coward, clumsy, diffident, give up easily, not responsible, and another stupid things. Once again, I'm 20. I feel the responsibility has bang my shoulders and there is 'graduate. work. married' banner on my forehead. Oh don't forget 'success and live happily ever after' at the end. Reality has woken me up that I'm not a child anymore. I'm not their little angel anymore, but their lovely guardian. No cereal breakfast on the table every morning, no games every after school, no screaming and jumping on the bed at the same time, no one tuck me in the night and kisses and that starring eyes full of love. Not anymore. Just missed that kind of things.
This rubbish-silly-words-thing is present for my parents. My superhero ever, my spirit of life, my reasons why I should wake up early to get some learn and skill even the gravity of bed is undeniable. GOD why bed's very tempting!
Maybe I'm too busy with my friends and some so-called boyfie, then I forget to call you. Maybe I spend a lot with my world and that fake-interim-happiness than to text you and know how you do. Maybe I put on airs to tell you that I miss and love you. To say sorry... this one is just too hard sometime. By this post, i just wanna let you know what I feel.
Mom, Dad. Your little angel's going to be your pretty guardian. Just by that, I hope you're always healthy and able to see me become what you are always expect. Pretty and success woman. I apologize for all my words, attitudes, thoughts, and mistakes. Also anything that makes you hurt accidentally. I want you to know. When I find my prince someday, you still my king, Dad. Even when I have my little princess, you still my Queen, Mom. When time comes to take you both, you'll buried in my heart and my soul.
Love,
Your daughter.
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